It's 5:10 a.m. and it's been a long night. I know for sure of only 2 1/2 hours of sleep I got and I decided to get up and shut the alarm clock off at 4:30. I might as well do something productive with my "extra" time the Lord seems to have blessed me with this morning. I wasn't nervous or anxious about starting seminary today...more like resigned, but I was pretty tired since I didn't get much sleep the night before so I really intended on a better start to this week. I've had this plan all summer that I would not shower in the morning before seminary and my longer hair has really come in handy for this. So, prep time for seminary is now 15 minutes...pretty good.
Seminary teacher is now a stake calling and yesterday I was sustained and set apart. I think...I hope this will help me. I'm still not sure this is what I'm supposed to be doing and while I'm not digging my heels in against it (or kicking against the pricks) so to speak, I suppose it's safe to say, I'm not excited about. I'm here. I must be a loser for being so whiny about a calling. I know I get so much more then I give and it will be worth it I'm sure, it always is and has been for the last 3 years. I'm not even sure what I'd rather be doing but I know I wanted to be involved with my kids' lives, especially since Chloe is a senior. I guess I know what that means. One good thing about teaching seminary is that I spend a lot more time on my knees and maybe the Lord likes it better when I'm on my knees more often. Also, at least I'm sure to get in my personal scripture study each day. Who else can say "I don't have time" to study the scriptures, not a seminary teacher! That's what we do. I get to feel the Spirit at outrageous hours of the day, I get to bond with teenagers, I get to watch videos, listen to great music and wear make up for about 16 hours a day! Not too shabby, I'd say. And this year, I get to commiserate with my Mom who will be teaching seminary as well. So now I have a built in buddy.
159 early morning hours to go.