For many years of my life, expressing myself through creativity has been an outlet and a way to find specks of joy here and there. As a young Mom, there had to be ways, other than changing diapers and filling sippy cups, of declaring my individuality. Whether that was through painting and decorating rooms or learning to bake bread, crocheting or knitting or taking beading classes, sewing aprons, curtains and matching vests for my girls, scrapbooking, cardmaking...you name it, I've done it.
Or so I thought.
A year or two ago my creativity vanished. Gone. There was no desire to lift a paint brush, scissors or any other tool. The process seemed to daunting and tedious. I'd forgotten how much I enjoyed the stimulation and satisfaction of creating. The right side of my brain turned to mush and I went numb.
Lucky for me I have hiking.
Last spring, Kiera invited me to attend a crafting convention with her where my creativity would be "sparked". And so, for months now I've been gearing myself up (literally) to go north and jam myself in a convention with a lot of other creative Moms and learn some new techniques and get my creative juices flowing again. I'm not gonna lie...I was scared. Why should I be scared of creativity?
Will I be able to keep up in the classes?
Will I remember techniques and skills I used to know?
Will I be able to use a restroom whenever I want? (Come on, there would be over 200 women sharing the same room)
Will I be intimidated?
Will I be able to learn something new?
Will I have anxiety about being crammed in a room with hundreds of women?
Will I enjoy it?
The weekend included playing with my dear friends from KC. Oh, I love those girls.
During the opening "ceremony", we were visited by the lovely Mindy Gledhill, whose music rings through our home daily. She sang some of her songs for us, including "Anchor", which was so fitting. I really feel exercising creativity in the past for me, has been an anchor. I couldn't resist loving on Miss Mindy.
We were warned that the exercises in creativity would challenge us in a way that might scare us and stretch us. Then I was scared. And I had every right to be.
I did things I'd never done before. I made art. So, because art appreciation is so subjective and undefined...there were no rules! Imagine...no rules!! No right or wrong way. Right brain clicked on.
I used pigment paints on canvas.
I felted merino wool around soap.
I used paints, stamps and stencils in a new way to create "She" art.
I hand sewed around reverse applique.
I made a birds nest from wire and pearls.
I hand-carved my own rubber stamp.
I brought home scads of free-bees, tools and samples.
It was all wonderful and a bit overwhelming.
I was well fed...and re-anchored.
Speaking of well fed. We ate. And ate. I have to say, my top foodie experience was the homemade organic soda. Lavender and honey....I will remember you.
What creative convention would be complete without a discussion on blogging? Since blogging has been my only outlet for any kind of creativity lately, it was perfect that I was able to meet someone who I admire in the blog world.
Courtney Kendrick from C-Jane Run was there. She's as genuine and charming in real life as I thought she'd be. Truly a hoot. We'd have a lot of fun together, I'm sure. I offered to take her hiking if she ever comes back to Dixie.
I was stretched in every way possible...beyond exhaustion. But I can say, after a good night's sleep, that I am rejuvinated, sparked and anchored. The entire drive home, I kept thinking how grateful I was to have the opportunity to be dunked in creative juices all weekend, to see my KC besties, and to have been well fed.
It felt good to have the right side of my brain functioning again.
And it's a good thing because using both sides of the brain keeps me anchored.
Now I take the next scary step.... staying creative.