Not Resolute

I wonder how everyone is doing with their resolutions.

I made some.  But this year they are more specific than in years past. There are only 5.  And I'm keeping track of my goals, jobs, appointments and plans every day with this chart...

Yesterday, I saw on another blog, how one gal listed the things she would NOT do over the year.  I thought that was a great idea so I thought I might come up with my own list.

I will not beat myself up every time I overeat.  My body punishes myself enough physically...I don't need the emotional trauma to go with it.

For another year, I will not allow my feelings to get hurt by people I know. I almost managed to completely avoid being offended the entire year, because I chose not to, even though some individuals gave me plenty of opportunity.  I am secure that I am a partner with my husband.  All that we own...we own together, the good and the bad, the tangible and intangible, the success and the debt. Everything. I am aware of more than I let on. I will not let it bother me that I am left out of the loop on certain situations, and will let my husband take credit for his generosity.

I will not throw a futile fit over things that I have no control over.  My reactions justify other's bad behavior. I will also cease to react or be angry over other's temper tantrums.

I will not lose another toenail.

I will not accept a 4th calling at church.

I will not give up on dreams and desires, even if someone tells me I should just be grateful for what I have and stop wanting more...even if those aspirations are completely out of reach.  A girl has gotta dream.

I will not have another viral ear infection.  And I believe if I keep telling myself that, it will come true.

I will not give up on my bucket list...which consists of a list of all the temples I want to attend over my lifetime.

I will not buy a size up.  Even if I end up look ridiculous.  I won't do it.

I won't cave to my Diet Coke restriction.  I will not allow myself to become addicted again.

I will not eat only Chocolate all day.  While that is my favorite thing to do, I will practice moderation.

I will not go more than 3 months before I have Miss Mindi wax my eyebrows.

I will not cease my love for wanderlust.

I will not give up my drug of choice....hiking.

I will not stop being excited for the completion of the Kansas City Temple. Although, I have concerns about a 'let down' feeling once it is finished.

I will not allow myself to give up hope and faith, even if I have to remind myself every single day.

I will not allow my pessimistic "Oscar" side to completely take over.

I won't stop loving my desert surroundings.

I won't become envious of other's talents and accept that everyone is given gifts, including myself.

I won't be an ingrate.

I will not stop loving my Savior and striving to be obedient...even when I'm not seeing results, blessings or desires fulfilled at the moment.

I can't guarantee I won't fail at some of my 'not resolutions' but I am determined to not let myself feel like a failure if I do stumble.